Brown. ;]

Its going to get the blonde chunks put in on.... the 7th. :D

This is where I'm at so far.
my mommy did it!


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Thank you mother..

straw paintings. ;]

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My straw tree:

Finished:


Absract horses:


Drawing:




Me on Christmas:



I'm hoping to dye my hair darker brown, and have chunks of blonde in it. :]

Merry Merry Ho Ho.

I just wanted to say Merry Christmas, I havent been writing poems alot lately, mainly because I havent gotten any comments.



Have a good year?

Shot Down:

Unending, unexplainable pain, seeps through your torn skin,
you try to take a breath, but blood is all you breathe from within.
to your knees, collapsed, you and I sit, cry, and embrace,
as your time quickly fades,you tell me you love me, and you are erased.

Corrupted.

The world around me stops it's breath,
finally, we are towards our death,
Lord, help the corrupted souls,
We must show them, you're in control.

For, they are nothing without you.
It is you, in-which they must pursue.

Pray for them. So they may live joyfully until death.

Stars:

The stars glistened over mine heart;
The pain I feel, I miss you, for being apart
Holds back the life, the Lord hath blessed to me,
for it is you, my dear, He wished me to see.
I love you, For all you have done.
I can almost assure that you are the one.

Faded Existence.

Relieve this pain I feel; It won't die
I wish to fall down; I cant help but cry.
My world collapsing all around me;
Full of darkness, I can't see.
Lord, I have fallen down; I've fell
No one can hear me, inside of this well.
Where my existence has faded
this life has left me jaded.

My Sinister Sea:

I've fallen down, the place around me
It's frigid, sinister, and damp.
The darkness is my handicap, I am blinded, unable to see.
This place, so small, it contains me, I'm cramp'd.
Pull me up out of the darkness, if you can,
Before he takes over my soul; for this evil will overcome me.
My overtaking has arrived, to the darkness, it has began.
He picks up my body, and I am thrown into a sea.
In this sea of regret and shame, darkness kills all the light,
I am fighting to come back above, where I can respire,
But he pulls me under, back into the night.
I am drawn into the darkness where I will expire.

In the heavens:

I floated up there, knowing we would be seperated, everything erased.

When I reached the heavens, I looked through the mist, and I saw your face.

Our eyes glanced toward one another, and we ran as fast as we could.

We held each other, and never let go, we were in heaven, and there we stood.

I looked into your eyes, and saw your soul, we held hands as we looked below,

Down at the ones we cared so deeply about, together watched the ones that grieved, and from our delicate faces the tears flowed.

The depth in your eyes:

Minutes pass by, you wont leave my mind.
You, honestly, were what I was trying to find.
Stay with me darling, hold on to me.
For I am with you, and forever I will be.
We may soar the clouds, fly through the skies,
But my love, when i connected to your eyes;
I realized love's true meaning,
nothing my dear, will cause an intervening.

You are with me, I with you.
You are the only one who will help me through,
Take my hand, and we will ascend toward the heavens.

Her Anguish, His Goodbye;

Her anguish:
Intense depression overcame her heart,
the anguish began when they broke apart.
She drove in anger, counting trees
At first, he pleaded, please, please.
In her mind, nothing could change her fate.
She didnt feel as if anyone could relate,
the pain so immense, so incredibly intense
she ignored him, meaning to create suspense.
Constantly the under depression, attack attack.
Goodbye she called, I wont be back.
I cant handle this anymore,
things are different than before
my heart is gone, replaced with dark.
It's my time, to the end of my journey i must embark


His Goodbye:
Stop, You will be okay,
Please, please, this anger you portray,
I know its painful, but hear my word,
I pray for you, dont think like this, so absured.
You can get through the sea of depression you feel;
Dont go to heaven now, you have time, you can heal.
He shut the phone, and began to cry;
not knowing if the time had come to say goodbye.
I can take away your pain, just hold on to me.
I can help you, make you free.
Dont let go, he explained, without you I will die.
She couldnt handle the pain anymore, goodbye.

Drawing Releases:

His pen delicately landed upon the paper:
His anti-drug the marks he made,
so painfully written; they never fade.
through the ink, his words so clear,
enduring pain, his heart did fear;
however, through ink, his agony released
his heart, my dear, is now at peace.

White Flakes Fall on Angel Wings

Amoungst the meadow, something is heard.
What is it? It must be a bird.
Snow fell so softly upon his small wings,
so, He lands on a fence, and quietly sings.

inspired by a song.

To be alone with you,
Your heart, it had no clue.
How in love I was with you.
To be together, would be taboo.
Forget me not,
For I am caught
in between, right and wrong
but i know, where my heart belongs.

Creative wonders.

Me at Kait's Party, Shes behind me doing makeup. :D
I was talking in the picture. Lol.




A response to a friend who helps me so dearly:
Your words, they are so kind.
I'm touched. I wish I could rewind
the past, and take it away,
but in my heart they want to stay.

I keep on hiding this pain I feel
But in my heart, it is so real.
God will hold me, this is true.
But for right now, I only have you.

You are my angel sweet child oh mine.
Be with me until the end of time.

I thought of this because of one of regina spektor's songs:
I am a prisoner,
confined behind metal bars,
from which i may stare at the stars.
shaven toothbrushes make for a razor
to which i may release my anguish,
in this prison, i may languish.

Makeover

I'm beginning to get into the style I find that shows who i am.
I bought two skinny jeans from Forever21, one grey, one black.
Two band shirts from Hot Topic, Underoath, and The Used.
a new red and black plaid faux fur collared bomber, aero.
3 pairs of knee socks! :]
and some earrings.





Okay. So the above is my transformation.

anyway. I am going to seriously talk with my parents about me moving in with my sister, jessica. Therefore I can gain residency in Missouri, and get in state tution prices for Northwestern Missouri.
My sister and I both agree that it is an amazing idea, we could bond, i could grow up, get a job at hot topic less then 4 miles from her house. and enjoy my senior year.

I hope it works out. I really do.

and as promised i will always give a poem I have written. i wrote about 20 today. so I have a lot of material to choose from.

To a loved one:
My heart, My soul,
They long for you.
You will make me whole.
But this you never knew.
Take my words to heart.
You complete me;
I never wish to part,
because of you, i'm finally free.