Loneliest Day

Its such a lonely day...and its mine.... The most loneliest day of my life. I feel like every decision I make should be positive and therefore in able to accept those that are in my plan yet fall away from positive actions. Hence, drugs. What is so great about them that makes them a primary choice of being with the person you say you love the most. I dont understand how it is so difficult. Perhaps because I am not a drug addict and do not find any pleasure in illegal activity of any sort. I guess I'm too much of a rule follower to make someone want to be with me more than drugs. If they are so great then marry them, dont keep my hopes towards the light when its always dark.

I guess when you have such deep love in your heart for someone and you see them hurting themselves and others around them, including you, you feel like you should intervene. I just wish what I had to say would help. I try my best to support and help, but if someone would rather do that what should I do? I feel like I am just wasting everyone's time in trying..

Because of my loud mouth, I expressed how much I care about someone and they find it very unimportant. Therefore I am sitting here at my house alone. I doubt my life is going to change much.